Otak-otak

otak cair
jadi keras batu
duduk bilik sejuk jadi gile bayang
satu hari satu kotak
dua hari tiga hari empat hari
lama lama bukan sebab kotak
sebab kertas tak banyak
besi tinggal sepuluh keping

otak cair
banyak lori lalu lalang
asap kepul kepul
satu empat puluh ribu satu empat puluh satu ribu
umor meningkat jadi dua puluh empat
satu tahun lagi dua puluh empat tambah satu lagi
Dengan izin Tuhan minta perkenan doa kami

otak cair
terus jadi cair
mintak dengan Tuhan
jangan gila bayang
jangan jadi syaitan
mintak hari hari
dah dapat mintak lagi
sekarang ape dah jadi
kene cuba satu kali lagi
sekali dapat lagi entah entah mintak lagi?

otak cair
cari satu hari
pergi cuti cuti
lari satu hari dua hari tiga hari
bila sampai masa
masa-lah sampai lagi
baru cari cari satu doa lagi

otak cair
otak cair ke?
silap.. dari mula silap
otak keras.. itu pasal-lah jadi macam ni.

Needs Cancer

some part of me wanted her so bad.
i cant sleep at night.
some other part wished she was with someone else.
so i can move on with my life.
this part of my life is as scarifying as hell.
every time i tried to get close to her.
she bend over and started to run.
every time i try to loose her.
she's like a shadow stalking me from behind.
what kind of life is; when ur afraid to move on;
thinking someday that shadow reveals and we become one?
i guess my wish has come true.
prayed for a highway.
one with no holes.
folded and scrapped.
that's how i am now.
what scares me the most about breaking up;
we might loose each other in those turns.
the junction that separates the chemistry between us.
taking from us the hope inward.
and yes may i say.
He's looking down on us with irony.
as the power of our mind crushed like an infected cell.
this cancer.
death.
only.
can separate these feelings.
death.
only.
can make me rest.
shadowless.
but not as happy.
happier may be.
really?

mother

mama: ko bile nk kawen?
me: apesal neh.. tibe2? kne cari gf dulu..
mama: yg haritu?
me: da tade..
mama: yg kate nk tunang tu?
me: er.. maybe kot..
mama: die buat ape skarang?
me: sambung master.. nnti da nk kawen along cakap la..